A Self Discovery

So, i've decided to start writing again. Yes a big step for me. At the moment life is just going too quick, and it's hard to stop and take a breath. Ninth grade is almost over, 2009 is almost half over, the love of my life is graduating, and many good friends are moving or have already moved. Its difficult to think about all this at once, so i decided i'm going to start writing again. It's an old hobby that stopped when i moved to this god-forsaken island. I truly miss the thrill of re-writing this messed up world into a mystical, magical wonderland. Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and just get the weirdest thoughts, asking myself "where am i going in life?', "cierra wake up and smell the coffee, you cant continue on the way you are", "dont stop believing in yourself just yet. hold on to the good times and relax". I'm starting to realize that every day is a new oppurtunity to get up and change something. My recent discovery? I CAN get good grades. I just wasn't focusing enough. Changing my prospective on life is just the beginning. I vow to spend more time with my friends, be on the computer less, make new friends, and help others in need. I think finishing what i start, and starting what i need to finish will really help me get in tune with my emotions. i'm trying to smile a lot more, cry a lot less, and yell only in pain. I figured "Life is too short, go do something with yours". I've decided to write a book. It may take awhile, but i dont care. i want to feel accomplished and feel like i've actually tried to do something in my life. i'm not sure if i'm going to finish the vampire book i started in sixth grade or not. Hey, it might just start a new "Twilight-esque" fad. Now this is just my opinion, but a life without meaning, is not a life at all. Well, thats my self discovery. I'm going to take up writing again. And i also wanted to post up my new to-do list.

2009-2010 To-Do List

1.) Write at least half a book
2.) Start doing community service
3.) Join a sport
4.) Help others
5.) Discover another useful idea to help out my life

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