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French is BORING.

A Self Discovery

So, i've decided to start writing again. Yes a big step for me. At the moment life is just going too quick, and it's hard to stop and take a breath. Ninth grade is almost over, 2009 is almost half over, the love of my life is graduating, and many good friends are moving or have already moved. Its difficult to think about all this at once, so i decided i'm going to start writing again. It's an old hobby that stopped when i moved to this god-forsaken island. I truly miss the thrill of re-writing this messed up world into a mystical, magical wonderland. Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and just get the weirdest thoughts, asking myself "where am i going in life?', "cierra wake up and smell the coffee, you cant continue on the way you are", "dont stop believing in yourself just yet. hold on to the good times and relax". I'm starting to realize that every day is a new oppurtunity to get up and change something. My recent discovery? I CAN get good grades. I just wasn't focusing enough. Changing my prospective on life is just the beginning. I vow to spend more time with my friends, be on the computer less, make new friends, and help others in need. I think finishing what i start, and starting what i need to finish will really help me get in tune with my emotions. i'm trying to smile a lot more, cry a lot less, and yell only in pain. I figured "Life is too short, go do something with yours". I've decided to write a book. It may take awhile, but i dont care. i want to feel accomplished and feel like i've actually tried to do something in my life. i'm not sure if i'm going to finish the vampire book i started in sixth grade or not. Hey, it might just start a new "Twilight-esque" fad. Now this is just my opinion, but a life without meaning, is not a life at all. Well, thats my self discovery. I'm going to take up writing again. And i also wanted to post up my new to-do list.

2009-2010 To-Do List

1.) Write at least half a book
2.) Start doing community service
3.) Join a sport
4.) Help others
5.) Discover another useful idea to help out my life

:)

When life Presents A Challenge

Unfortunately, life will always present challenges. Sometimes big challenges, sometimes small. I really enjoy a challenge, so when the opportunity presents itself, i'll take it. Sometimes i wonder if i'm just strange, which could be it, but hey, who cares? All of the people that love me, love me for ME. Well I'm going to the beach with the boyfriend and a few others tomorrow, and i'm hoping this little endeavor presents a few challenges, or just a great time. With that being said, enjoy life to the fullest, you never know when something will change drastically :)

Just Some Random Thoughts

So yesterday i was thinking about how much i truly love my friends. They keep me up when i'm down, and i realize just how much they care. I'm really glad i don't have to try. They mean the world to me. I also believe that Benjiman Han Glenn is truly wonderful. When he graduates i'll be pretty sad, but i know that his high school days are over soon, and his life as an adult must continue. As much as i hate to see him go, i really hope we can stay together for a long time. People CAN stay together. I've seen it happen. Another thing i was thinking about, is how much i hate school. I mean, i know getting an education is really important, but i really don't like it anymore. Next year will be interesting hopefully. A lot of the really funny, amazing, incredibly cool people i know, are leaving this island. Ryan, Ian, Stephanie, Tiffany, Shelby... The list goes on. It's really annoying to be stuck on a floating rock. I'll be gone as soon as i graduate, hopefully. One more thing: I got up close and personal with a baby bird yesterday. Go check out my pictures ;)